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Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
4:02 pm
I'm being moved to a bigger cubicle, with two computers. Most of the time it will be ALL mine! muahahaha! But, when they need me to train someone, that extra space will be occupied. Hopefully, with the training flow sheet that i'm devising, it won't take more than 2-3 day to get 'em out on their own.


I'll be saving $100 every 6 months on my car insurance! so, EAT IT!!


*migraine* must take nap :(

current mood: sore

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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
4:13 pm
Work was very slow today. VERY!! I only worked on 9 files, and the rest of the time I just pretended to fill out closing documents. In reality, I was drawing or writing letters to friends/family. Towards the end of the day... 2:00 (me thinks).. Misty had me train Crazy Robin. We call her Crazy, because she talks to herself. Any objections with that nickname, now?! I didn't think so! :P Anyhoo, I don't like training her. Not that I dont like training, overall. I quite enjoy it. In fact, every job I've ever had has led to me training people. I like knowing that these people aren't just going to finish their work. They're going to be doing it correctly. Misty said she'll have another one for me in two weeks. I'm pretty excited about that. Hopefully, it's someone that doesn't smell or converse with themselves :x


I gotta go to the doctor at 6. I don't know why I'm nervous!! I just am!! After the doctor, I'm going to buy Andrea some flowers. Just as a token of my appreciation and friendship. Last weekend, she wanted to hang out with me, but I had no money for anything. As much as I hated it, she ended up paying for everything. She doesn't mind to, but I'm just so stubborn and bullheaded when it comes to things like that. Anyways, She's a great friend, and I just want to do something for her.

Gotta run *muah*

current mood: scared

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Monday, November 15th, 2004
5:48 pm
Oy! I haven't turned my computer on in over a week. It feels kind of weird. Anyways, I've just been feeling kinda depressed. I lost interest in most things, which is one of the worst feelings.


I have a follow up appointment at the doctor's tomorrow. She is basically just going to ask me if Prevacid has been working or not. I don't like the side affects, but I haven't had much reflux action, so I guess I can't really complain. I'm also going, to ask her if she can help me out with my severe cramps. I almost started crying at work, today. I didn't take any midol, because I didn't know if it would react with my acid reflux medicine.


My next Dental appointment is on the 14th of December. They're going to finish up the oral debris cleaning (or whatever the hell it's called), and probably fill in my ONE cavity. I'm so proud of myself. I haven't been to the dentist in about 5 years, and I only have one tiny baby cavity. GO ME!!! Anyhoo, I'm pretty excited about that. I love the dentist!


Things have been pretty calm at home. I haven't gotten into any arguments with "you know who." I think a part of me is just comprimising a lot so I can avoid any disputes. Anyways, Andrea said she will wait for me until March. I'm pretty excited about that. I won't think about it too much, though, because I hate being so excited for something that won't happen for months. It just makes the days go by slower.


I need to lose weight. My brief bout of depression has led to 10lbs extra on meee!! Which pisses me off, because I worked so hard to lose 20 a few months ago. Eh, I just need to be more active. But that's been pretty difficult, because my medicine just makes my body feel exhausted and lazy. I need to pick up some sort of exercise regime.


I'm cramping. It hurts. Boo-fuckin-hoo!

current mood: drained

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Sunday, November 7th, 2004
7:20 am
Ok, now I'm about to die. I believe Matthew and I were on the phone until 530am. It is now 730am. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING UP?! You'd think this would be the day that I sleep in until noonish. Nope. My freakishly demented internal clock hates me. Maybe, I'll nap later. It's usually difficult for me to even attempt a nap, but I'll try.


SoBe is spooked about something. Lastnight, she tried laying on me and just trying to be close to me. She was also panting and shaking like crazy. After a while, all that shaking made me nauseous. Eventually, she fell asleep and stopped. I was really concerned, because even the thought of her dying came into my mind, lastnight. I hate it, but that's how my mind works, sometimes. She was okay, this morning, but she follows me wherever I go. And when I walk, she tries to stay between my legs. I went outside with her, to see if she had to pee, but she just stood between my legs and gave me a pathetic stare. SoBe kinda spit up a white mucousy substance before we went in. So this is my assumption:

She is really sick.

Being really sick frightens her.

Hence the spit-up, shaking, and constant need for affection.

(picture of SoBe earlier Saturday... After I gave her a bath)

current mood: sleepy

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Saturday, November 6th, 2004
9:12 pm
Today I had gone to bed at 430am, and I woke up at 630. Im actually feeling pretty good for someone workin on 2 hours of sleep.

I didn't really do much today:

*took a shower

*ate pancakes at Denny's

*went to NBC and bought a schweeet jacket for $29 (orig $129)

*went to the grocery store and bought some bottled water

*argued with the EX

*drove to my sister's house and watched the OU game (42-35 OU woooO!!)

*text messaged Andrea. Turns out she's sick and we aren't doing anything tonight

*scrimmed with Lynni. We blew ass. I need a new mouse, anyways, if I want to even consider scrimming, again. The grips on the bottom have peeled off, and I cant turn very well. yarRRr!

Right now, I am talking to Matthew. I kinda feel like my weekend has been wasted... and I know there's always tomorrow, but Sunday's are always normally my "lounge" days. blah.

current mood: bored

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7:58 am - A new day... A new journal....
I've been through a lot these past few months. Many of my problems stem from the breakup back in June. It seems like forever ago.


I'm trying to get my life together. I've seen the doctor about my Acid Reflux, and I am currently taking Prevacid to treat it. I have been to the dentist and will probably search for an optometrist sometime next week. Thankfully, I have the greatest insurance. Otherwise, all this would cost me a fortune.


I have also met someone. I have spoken about him in my past journal. We will be going to California in December, which has me VERY excited!! The EX knows that I'm going, and he even gives me shit about it every chance he gets. haha Too bad he doesn't know that I already bought the tickets!! (non-refundable, I might add) This is just part of my new life, and I won't let anyone from the past try to bring me down. I've had so many setbacks and disappointments in my life. Mainly, caused by other people. This is my chance to do something for myself, and make myself happy, instead of trying to please everyone around me. Some call it selfish. I like to think of it as Saving my Sanity.


I'll update some later. *muah*

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